I'm not allowed to be a Christian
or so says a friend of mine
from back in the day
who has to have things her way
She should be allowed to wallow in her sin
and once again
I am to sit by and watch and say nothing
I can't speak, whisper or sing a song
that says that what she does is wrong
Does she even know that I pray
almost every day
that God will knock her upside the head
before she ends up dead?
For five years I have sat by and watched
this little girl
throw her life down the toilet
and throw herself at one boy that
would hurt her and then another I mean -
where is her mother?
And her father made her leave our ministry
because of the boys
and now today she uses them like toys
to be used and broken and thrown away
and now I would almost say
that she's more trouble than they ever were!
And I hear now she has a girlfriend
as if the pain in her life should never end
I mean - does she even know what she's doing?
I'm afraid she does
even though the love
from the Father won't end
like her life will someday
and now that she says she's gay - no, bi! What a lie!
How long, I ask, before she dies from a disease?
Oh, please, God, let her see the error of her ways!
How many times have I ran into her
passing out flyers for a concert
eyes glazed over, lips chapped and bleeding
conscience floating in some other zone
all alone
Does she even remember seeing me that day
or did she take the flyer and throw it away
not even realizing that
that was her old youth leader
who stuck by her side
when I knew her dad was abusing her?
But my hands are tied
and now the devil's just using her!
Chewing her up, spitting her out
beating and bruising her.
And it sickens me, the thought
of God's kingdom losing her!
But to be around her would be to jeopardize
my son's salvation, and all the lies
that are contagious to me and you
like some kind of twisted bird flu
it spreads from one sinner to another
What kind of mother
would I be, now that he's been set free,
to place him in that situation?
No, his salvation
is too precious to me and the Lord,
no I can't afford
to tempt my son for the sake of ministry
and so I release her to You, Lord
do as You will
and I hope, oh I pray
that she has a place still
in her heart for reconciliation
and that she, and the rest of her generation
will change their ways
before You return. | 
